Gettin' me hair done today...woo! Then I head south for some work and some play with D.P. WOOOOHOOOO!!!
Have a great day, my dear friends!!!
xoxo,
Cindie
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I am only...
...looking forward from here on out. Except when I You Tube good music from the past.
"Dont Worry About The People In Your Past There Is A Reason They Didnt Make It To Your Future..."
Ok, fine.
Have a good one, my friends!
xoxo,
Cindie
"Dont Worry About The People In Your Past There Is A Reason They Didnt Make It To Your Future..."
Ok, fine.
Have a good one, my friends!
xoxo,
Cindie
It's a nice place to visit but...
...I wouldn't want to live there.
Rant time.
I'm frustrated. I feel like I'm hundreds of feet away from reaching the top of a mountain. I've been climbing the mountain for over 30 years. It's physically, mentally and emotionally draining. Some times I get to a plateau and I start to believe I'll make it to the top of that mountain. And then...BAM! I lose my footing and drop down the mountain. But do I give up? No. I keep on climbing. While I'm climbing the mountain, I am so focused on getting to the top that I forget about the necessities of taking care of those physical, mental and emotional aspects that are important to nurture to help me reach the top of that mountain. Now, don't get me wrong. I am not a victim of this mountain but a willing and able participant. I see others on this mountain and I've seen and know of many who fall off completely and never make it. I see and know of many who get knocked down twice as far as I do and they keep going. Sometimes, they even pass me up. So, let it be known that I am GRATEFUL for my abilities to stay on the mountain even though at times I want to give up because it's hard. And then the weather gets really crappy and I don't have the right supplies and warm clothing to get through the storm. I think sometimes others who are along side the mountain with me forget that I endured the worst snow storm ever not too long ago. The hypothermia set in. I had others actually pushing me off the mountain. And they pushed hard. The detractors took things away from me that I loved and crushed dreams that were years in the making. While I was strong enough to start climbing the mountain again, my spirit was sabotaged. My gear was worn and it was up to me and only me to repair what I had and press on. Luckily for me I've been blessed with a huge support team. But when it all comes down to it, I'm the only one who can get myself to the top of the mountain. After that storm last year and a few showers in the last few months, it has been a real challenge to believe I can make it to that mountain top.I get angry and I don't understand why this climb is so difficult as I watch others just fly straight to the top. I don't need much to get there. I think my requests are reasonable. In addition to my amazing support team, all I need is a strong partner who can relieve me when my strength is low and in return I can be the strength for my partner. All I need is a big strong rope that enables me to use my intelligence and dedication to be successful. I've got the rope and I'm pulling super hard on it and can actually see that I've got the best rope on the market. I have control over that rope and all of that hard work is slowly paying off and I know I'm on the right track with it. As for the partner, I have not been so lucky. And that's ok. Maybe it's not meant for me to have one. I don't understand why that would be and I am angry about not having one because I think I deserve one. The wounds from last year's blizzard are not fully healed so I find myself feeling weak and in need of my support team. At the same time, I want to make sure my support team stays healthy and I do what I can to keep them motivated and strong. Some may label me a "victim" but I have to say that I do not play that role. I'm allowed to be frustrated and angry because I KNOW that I am strong enough to make it to the top of this mountain. The anger and frustration comes from the many beatings I've taken, not just from potential climbing partners but from the ropes I had in the past. I've given away my gear when I see others who need it. In doing that, it has made my own journey a little more difficult. Some may say I give too much of my gear away and I need to be more selfish. Well, it's not who I am. I guess if giving away too much of my gear is going to keep me from that mountain top then maybe it's not meant to be. And right now I'm angry about that, but you know what? I can only modify my gear situation, not change it completely. It's MY gear. I can't help but share it even if it hinders my journey. It makes me happy to help those other mountain climbers. And I may hurt myself by doing it but I did not choose the gear in my pack. It's what I was given. Those climbers may churn and it is their loss. I can't control that. I'm angry about it today but I will get through it. I always do.
Do you ever feel that to others your mountain is just a nice place to visit but they wouldn't want to live there? That's how I'm feeling today. I'll get over it so don't worry. K?
Sorry for any typos or grammatical errors. It's 3am and I'm stinkin' tired.
Good night.
Rant time.
I'm frustrated. I feel like I'm hundreds of feet away from reaching the top of a mountain. I've been climbing the mountain for over 30 years. It's physically, mentally and emotionally draining. Some times I get to a plateau and I start to believe I'll make it to the top of that mountain. And then...BAM! I lose my footing and drop down the mountain. But do I give up? No. I keep on climbing. While I'm climbing the mountain, I am so focused on getting to the top that I forget about the necessities of taking care of those physical, mental and emotional aspects that are important to nurture to help me reach the top of that mountain. Now, don't get me wrong. I am not a victim of this mountain but a willing and able participant. I see others on this mountain and I've seen and know of many who fall off completely and never make it. I see and know of many who get knocked down twice as far as I do and they keep going. Sometimes, they even pass me up. So, let it be known that I am GRATEFUL for my abilities to stay on the mountain even though at times I want to give up because it's hard. And then the weather gets really crappy and I don't have the right supplies and warm clothing to get through the storm. I think sometimes others who are along side the mountain with me forget that I endured the worst snow storm ever not too long ago. The hypothermia set in. I had others actually pushing me off the mountain. And they pushed hard. The detractors took things away from me that I loved and crushed dreams that were years in the making. While I was strong enough to start climbing the mountain again, my spirit was sabotaged. My gear was worn and it was up to me and only me to repair what I had and press on. Luckily for me I've been blessed with a huge support team. But when it all comes down to it, I'm the only one who can get myself to the top of the mountain. After that storm last year and a few showers in the last few months, it has been a real challenge to believe I can make it to that mountain top.I get angry and I don't understand why this climb is so difficult as I watch others just fly straight to the top. I don't need much to get there. I think my requests are reasonable. In addition to my amazing support team, all I need is a strong partner who can relieve me when my strength is low and in return I can be the strength for my partner. All I need is a big strong rope that enables me to use my intelligence and dedication to be successful. I've got the rope and I'm pulling super hard on it and can actually see that I've got the best rope on the market. I have control over that rope and all of that hard work is slowly paying off and I know I'm on the right track with it. As for the partner, I have not been so lucky. And that's ok. Maybe it's not meant for me to have one. I don't understand why that would be and I am angry about not having one because I think I deserve one. The wounds from last year's blizzard are not fully healed so I find myself feeling weak and in need of my support team. At the same time, I want to make sure my support team stays healthy and I do what I can to keep them motivated and strong. Some may label me a "victim" but I have to say that I do not play that role. I'm allowed to be frustrated and angry because I KNOW that I am strong enough to make it to the top of this mountain. The anger and frustration comes from the many beatings I've taken, not just from potential climbing partners but from the ropes I had in the past. I've given away my gear when I see others who need it. In doing that, it has made my own journey a little more difficult. Some may say I give too much of my gear away and I need to be more selfish. Well, it's not who I am. I guess if giving away too much of my gear is going to keep me from that mountain top then maybe it's not meant to be. And right now I'm angry about that, but you know what? I can only modify my gear situation, not change it completely. It's MY gear. I can't help but share it even if it hinders my journey. It makes me happy to help those other mountain climbers. And I may hurt myself by doing it but I did not choose the gear in my pack. It's what I was given. Those climbers may churn and it is their loss. I can't control that. I'm angry about it today but I will get through it. I always do.
Do you ever feel that to others your mountain is just a nice place to visit but they wouldn't want to live there? That's how I'm feeling today. I'll get over it so don't worry. K?
Sorry for any typos or grammatical errors. It's 3am and I'm stinkin' tired.
Good night.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
D-Party Pics
Here are a few pics from D-Party a couple weeks ago.
Tee hee hee! Good times. Love ya, friends!!!
xoxo,
Cindie
Tee hee hee! Good times. Love ya, friends!!!
xoxo,
Cindie
Sunday, March 21, 2010
So annoying...
I thought about what I wanted to write in my blog today since it has been a while since I posted anything. And guess what? I totally FORGOT what I was going to write. DAMN IT! I had the title and everything. GRRRRR. Well basically I've just been adjusting for the past week to my new schedule at New Job since training is over. We've been let loose from the classroom! It's been an interesting experience and I just hope I can look back at this time one day and laugh about all the flubs. I am very competitive with myself and I want to catch on to things fast. I get frustrated when I make stupid mistakes even though we're told that this is how it is at the beginning for everyone. So, Ok, I'll buy that for now but come April 1 I expect my stats to be pretty damn good.
Not sure if I still sell suits. With my New Job schedule change, I'm not available during the shifts I was working. Still waiting that one out. I got back into Tutoring Job full swing this week.
So I thought I should share this really yummy, really wierd dish that I am eating right now. I mixed a can of green beans and a can of cream of chicken soup and added pico de gallo (the spice not the tomatoes/onions thing), chili powder and pepper. And heated it up of course. REALLY dang good. And even better, I'm watching I Love Lucy while I grub down. :-)
Have you asked me any questions on my question asking website?????
So, I guess that's it for now unless I remember what I wanted to write originally.
xoxo,
Cindie
Not sure if I still sell suits. With my New Job schedule change, I'm not available during the shifts I was working. Still waiting that one out. I got back into Tutoring Job full swing this week.
So I thought I should share this really yummy, really wierd dish that I am eating right now. I mixed a can of green beans and a can of cream of chicken soup and added pico de gallo (the spice not the tomatoes/onions thing), chili powder and pepper. And heated it up of course. REALLY dang good. And even better, I'm watching I Love Lucy while I grub down. :-)
Have you asked me any questions on my question asking website?????
So, I guess that's it for now unless I remember what I wanted to write originally.
xoxo,
Cindie
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
After 7 years...
...I am officially back in a cubicle!!! Training at New Job ended yesterday **sniff** **sniff** and we went to our new digs last night. ACK! I have a lil trouble with change, but at least I knew this was coming. And it's good change so that helps!
Bobo found a friend yesterday...
Ladies, he is single!!! Awww...K-man is super funny and a very good sport with Bobo.
Oreo (cat) must have been really cold during the night. She crawled under my blankets and slept under there for part of the night. Poor baby.
Well, for lots of you it's a TGIF day, but not for me! No days off for me coming up!
xoxo,
Cindie
Bobo found a friend yesterday...
Ladies, he is single!!! Awww...K-man is super funny and a very good sport with Bobo.
Oreo (cat) must have been really cold during the night. She crawled under my blankets and slept under there for part of the night. Poor baby.
Well, for lots of you it's a TGIF day, but not for me! No days off for me coming up!
xoxo,
Cindie
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Do you...
go thru a McDonald's drive through and eat all your fries before you get home? I can't help but eat them all before I get home. I'm just sayin'.
Whew! What a long week and the week that's a comin' is going to be even more interesting because class training at New Job is ending and so is the current schedule. I'm excited though. As much as I resist change, I am looking forward to getting on with it. And I work with cool people so that makes it fun.
Now to decide how many of my other jobs I can hang on to. In this economy I don't really feel comfortable turning work down. But I'm wearing down! :-/
Well, it's a night in for me which is very rare these days. I came home straight after work and I'm already cozy and about to watch my Netflix movie. Then I have a book that a friend loaned me that I am going to start reading. Before I know it, it will be morning and time to sell suits...
Good night, y'all...make it a good one!
xoxo,
Cindie
Whew! What a long week and the week that's a comin' is going to be even more interesting because class training at New Job is ending and so is the current schedule. I'm excited though. As much as I resist change, I am looking forward to getting on with it. And I work with cool people so that makes it fun.
Now to decide how many of my other jobs I can hang on to. In this economy I don't really feel comfortable turning work down. But I'm wearing down! :-/
Well, it's a night in for me which is very rare these days. I came home straight after work and I'm already cozy and about to watch my Netflix movie. Then I have a book that a friend loaned me that I am going to start reading. Before I know it, it will be morning and time to sell suits...
Good night, y'all...make it a good one!
xoxo,
Cindie
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Have you ever?????
Had a weird dream? The other night I dreampt that some guys that I work with were flying a convertible car plane. They had to fly it across a Dam and they were winding and twisting all over the place to get across. They landed straight down and I have no idea if anyone was hurt.
I have absolutely NO IDEA where that dream came from.
"Last night I had a dream that a hamburger was eating ME!" - Jerry Seinfeld
xoxo,
Cindie
I have absolutely NO IDEA where that dream came from.
"Last night I had a dream that a hamburger was eating ME!" - Jerry Seinfeld
xoxo,
Cindie
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Clearing out the negativity...
I realized (I know, what took me so long?) that I have allowed way too much negativity in my life lately! I've been through the ringer in recent months as I've said before so I decided NO MORE negative crap. I am going to steer in the opposite direction of it. Focus is back on me. Enough said!
xoxo,
Cindie
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